The Truth is I Just Want to "GO HOME".

When I was 33 years old I remember having a session with a beautiful and intuitive healer.

At that point in my life, I had two buoyant, happy babies, a beautiful marriage, a new home, a healthy body, lots of caring friends, a vibrant circle of sisterhood and a deeply spiritual life which I tended to as often I could as a new mother.

My life felt abundant and I was deeply content.

YET...there was a VOID I couldn’t put words to.

There was a longing so intense I had no context for it.

I remember struggling to describe it to this healer.

She prompted me to slow down, be in silence and just let the words bubble up from the center of being.

After a few minutes I heard myself saying..

“The truth is I just want to go HOME.”

It shook me when I said that because any outside person might have thought that I meant I wanted out of my life which wasn’t the case at all.

I feared that I sounded suicidal or insane to her.

Bless her heart. She smiled warmly at me and responded,

"Yes. I know that feeling well. My soul feels that way too".

So ok. Whew. I wasn’t crazy.

But still the feeling lingered.

For years, I lived within the paradigm that my sojourn on earth was a temporary experience and that someday, some way, my soul would find itself HOME.

I imagined a star family, a soul tribe, and a circle of cosmic elders welcoming me back when I was done with this rodeo show called “human existence” and the thought of reuniting with them warmed my longing heart and quelled the discomfort of being separated from this star-cluster I imagined was “HOME”.

In the past year, everything shifted.

So much has expanded. So much collapsed.

So much has been revealed.

Today, I have a different perspective and I wish to share it here for anyone else who has ever had (has) this feeling.

What I know now is that it is not necessary to leave Earth in order to go “Home”, for home is a state of consciousness, a state of connectedness generated from within yourself.

You are home when you return to your heart.

You are home when you find the mother/father within yourself.

You are home when you remember that you are the love of god.

You are home when you realize (real eyes) that you are one with everything.

Home is here and now but a breath away.

It is within you, always.

It is neither a space nor a place.

It is not somewhere we go.

It is a frequency.

it is a state of consciousness.

We can touch the exquisite vibration of HOME in many ways. Within the sacred pauses.

The potent silence.

The here and now.

The holy of holies.

Through laugher and nature.

Through womb prayer and dance.

Through seeing and being seen.

Through song and small acts of surrender over and over again.

HOME.

It is not a far off star system or some other sacred galactic place.

It is a state of being.

It is who you truly are.

Today, I bow to you dear friend on the path.

I honor you.

I remember you.

I love you.

I will meet you in the sacred HOME of our shared being-ness.