Please Disappoint Me, Dear Daughter

My Daughter: "But....I don't want to be a disappointment to you"

ME: Autumn, Listen to me. I am not going to lie. There might be times in your life that you make a choice that will disappointment me.

And love, anytime that happens...my disappointment will arise in that moment because I had a vision for what I thought you should be doing that you didn't do. Do you understand?

I want you to ALWAYS be willing to disappointment me if it means you are following your truth.

Please, please, please be willing to disappointment anyone, everyone, including me and Dad if it means that you are following your own knowing.

And in the end....once I get over a bruised ego or my own fear...I promise to always take responsibility for what comes across as disappointment. It has nothing to do with you...can you hear that?

Anytime I appear to be disappointed in you, or a choice you have made, I am reacting from my own pain and projecting it onto you. I am sorry in advance for the times I will forget and I will do that. I am so sorry for the hurt it might cause you. It's NEVER about you or who you are.

It will always be about me and the fear of my own inadequacy.

And when I come out of the fog of being triggered, I'll be able to take responsibility for that.
I give you my word that I always will.

In the end, my love...there is nothing that will make me more proud than to have raised a daughter who loves and honors herself so much that she is willing to "disappointment" others in order to follow the truth of her own heart.

I love you.

<3

Mom